Slow lee

had the weirdest dream last night -- about being in a villa in tuscany and then going to explore the woods above the house and finding all these dwellings with wild animals caged up in close quarters in the front "yards" of humans. there were leopards and baboons and people living among them. it was vivid and scary. sort of the reality that lives inside the veneer?

am doing my bills for my daytona shoot and it is killing me - that was such a complete and utter fiasco, each expense is a knife in my heart. i've avoided even looking at the dv tapes from that shoot it was such a traumatic weekend - part of what determined me laying down my camera for the past 2.5 months! i'm ready to crawl out of the "my work is on hold" period, thank god, because that does not make me a happy person.

gearing up internally to do what i need to do and negotiate. i wish i had the skills of certain working girls that i was spending time with this time last year... i'm past my year anniversary with the hookers and my year anniversary with the cameraman : )

but am pretty tired. and feel like things are progressing at about the pace of this little snail we met in Greece.