Pinot Grigio, Hotel Wireless and L.A. bullshit..

Hotel wireless, the simple joys. White wine spritzer, a necessity. Just had a fucking harrowing taxi ride from my grandmother’s house. The guy was really smooth and cool on the phone, but a total liar in person, completely late, aggressive, telling me I should have gotten a ride when he was ready, so it was my fault he came late, he stopped for gas, in short – made me miss my screening at 9:30 because being in Palos Verdes is nowhere near Westwood – and when you’re late and then getting gas, well, you’re screwed. So here I am – drinking in my hotel room. Feeling slightly relieved after paying the bastard up front, that he didn’t insist I jump out on some corner because he was ready to go. Will be meeting up with old friend Jenni in a few hours.

Now – seeing Grandma who is 94 with late stage alzheimers is another story. A sad one, however, the only plus side to this is that after 94 years this is the first time she saw me and told me I was beautiful without suggesting surgery, weight loss, weight gain or new hair. As the memory goes, so does the critical eye? I was appreciative.

Meetings in L.A. – I HATE L.A. What the fuck? A different planet. Had long meetings with incredibly smart people determining the fate of one of our grants for work yesterday. Very interesting, people were thoughtful, smart, courteous, I did not feel like a piss ant, although our funder came to the meeting – her boss has endowed this grant – and she wasn’t so cool. Body language read: Nancy – be seen and not heard. And sorry, sister, same goes for you. She was in my opinion, speaking too much as someone there as an observer and being overly hierarchical toward me. Whereas past president of Showtime who I thought would be an egomaniac, was a pleasant surprise – smart, cool, open – and treated the Nance like a human.

Scratching my head wondering why I’m at this job – its been a rough transition from filmmaker to job. Need to work toward starting own company and making more films. Film production company…. Dreams to become reality. Not far off. Totally possible.